Photography, Imissyou.

Generally I'd just hop back into my ultimate favorite hobby which is photography as soon as I possibly can! But, I just haven't had much of an excitement for my camera lately. About a few months after I purchased my FIRST baby Kandi, she's a Nikon d60, I dropped her. Yes folks you heard right, I DROPPED the poor girl! And, I've managed since.. I mean, I've taken her on my super vacations back home to Maui♥, and she's also come on my 3 month journey to California and Pennsylvania (including the small states nearby).

I begged my husband to purchase a new camera. God knows if we can afford it. Photography has always been my thing way from when I was in my younger years. When my mom purchased my FIRST polaroid camera for my birthday. I believe, I was 12 years old then. Of course, she worried that I'd break it. Then, I went to those stick cameras (gosh I can't remember what they were called). My tia (aka auntie) bought me one of those old school poloroids idk if it really is called izone but it printed out lil pictures and you could stick 'em places too. Here's a picture. Ugh the good times. I use to use moms 35mm FILM camera. But my ultimate love was in photography my SENIOR year of high school.

Wells, that's all. I'm blabbing this weekend.

Ugh, she's at it again!

Hello my blogging lovelies,

Gosh, I really need more traffic. But, it's okay. I'm just enjoying this blogging scene very muttts. Anyways, I started a new blog it's called Tha Labor Pains. It's a mommyhood blog. I would present it all on here but I want to separate my personal, from all the fun entertaining ones!

So, I downloaded a new app on my iphone it's called Meebo. I really like it because it has all the messengers (including: Facebook, YIM, Msn, and all that stuff). I really like it because it notifies me when I have a new chat or someone messages me. I love it. But anyways, I got my friend from facebook on the chat today and I was asking her if she had come into the same situations as I am..

My daughter is 3 and her daughter is 4 both kids a year apart even when their birthdays come this year. Well, and both our sons are new. My son was born nearly a month ago, and her son was born halloween day! So, I ask her things about her daughter and her son. She also has an oldest daughter.

Well, my daughter is having issues SLEEPING because what my friend thinks is - "it's a jealous issue". Ya think so? I thought was.. and I also thought that it's because she wants her "fathers" attention. He plays on his Xbox at night with his cousins and he won't get off even if a fire started (dramatization, so negative but it's most likely NOT true). Well, my daughter threw a MAJOR tantrum and she's done this even BEFORE her brother was born. She'd fight both her father and I for bedtime... and when she'd finally lay down to sleep she'd wake up as if it was a power nap and she'd just piss us off all night because she doesn't want to sleep?! Call it jealous still? I don't know but it's starting to get on my fckn nerves, PERIOD.

She decides what she wants. I put her to bed, I read her stories but STILL she manages to STAY AWAKE. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm seriously ready to blow a fuse. I'm just so bothered. I need a vacation, I need a spa treatment, I need QUIET TIME. What the hell?!

I don't see why it's so hard for her to sleep. I don't know what else will help her. She's still having the potty training issues. IDK what to do with myself OR my daughter. Any takers?

I'm always hungry.

I swear that's why i'm so fat. I love food. So, i'm making myself SICK by looking at recipes. I'm hoping for a better year of eating. I've already managed to RUIN that. But, being that we're only in the SECOND month into the year. Gaw, I hate when the beginning of the year comes - I'm telling you now, and I'll keep reminding you, promises are made to be broken. haha. Broken promises happen a lot during your lifetime without you even noticing it! I'm seeking good diabetic food, or low carb food.

I had a rough day with my little peanut today. He was super fussy throughout Walmart (day2). He was like that too the other day we visited Walmart. I believe my son hates walmart. And, the first store my daughter disliked was Costco! haha. Oh my kids.

I was on skype today. Made me miss my mom, and my home. Gosh homesickness sucks. On another note, I did start a blogspot for my mom (i'll get you the story). I started it a few months ago. See, my mom is ill. She had kidney failure (2nd time in her life, god bless her) and she remains on dialysis until a transplant is available. Guys, the demand for a kidney is insane. Well when I started it, I had full intention of starting my moms story. I want to do a project for her to help raise funds for her and her family. God knows I have taken a lot from my mom thruout the years and from when I was a little girl - I have to give back. I was a rotten child. Believe me when I say it. Well, i briefly put it on hold and in the meantime we found out, thanksgiving week, that my stepdad (my moms husband) has cancer. My little sister, my moms other child, is also amongst their story. She was born 26 week fetal age and she was VERY premature. Nothing wasn't developed well. She has a hole in her heart. I'll send over the link somehow. I need to get this started and quick! My mom has been supporting me a little, being that I live on another island and I'm struggling (in my own way, I ain't gonna lie), and she told me that my stepdads hospital bills are starting to roll in.

So, my intentions are to help raise funds in their name by creating things.. like sewing (i'm not perfect at it but it's worth the shot), sell my photography (I live in Hawaii for god sake someone is bound to notice, right? oh there goes my ego i'm sorry), and/or bake sale? I don't know, we'll see. I also can design online. But, that doesn't lead me anywhere (i've tried).

If anyone has any tips on what I could do. Please, let me know. Thanks.

Anyways, it's 1:30am. I have a husband that is outta commission (he slept wrong a few nights ago and have been struggling with muscle spasms) and i have a naughty jealous toddler and a fussy baby! It's time for bed.

Country Love

I swear, sometimes I can't get off this country music wagon! I just can't. I'm very in love with Keith Urban! So, his "tonight I wanna cry" station on Pandora is the bomb diggity. I know, I come from a different breed. When you look at me you'd never know I ADORE COUNTRY MUSIC. Don't judge, it's greatness. Anyways, whatever about that one. I just like slow love songs that's country so stop it. haha. Favorite female artist is Carrie Underwood. Okay enough about that seriously.

Ugh, alright so I WAS enjoying my very fast half and hour MOMMY time. My daughter was asleep, her daddy, and her brother too! I was loving this music and I was just in bliss until I hear my daughter stir. Okay, so can I do a quick vent - my daughter hasn't been to "happy" about her brother getting a lot of attention. We still include her in a lot of things don't get me wrong but I think she's more remembering the "scoldings she has been receiving instead. But, it's for a lot of reasons. And, she's been throwing her "terrible 2" tantrums like it's nobodys business. When it's bedtime, she'll fight until 2am. The other night, she decided all on her own that she wants to throw a fit her father and I was like - alright do what you want. She eventually went to bed. She fell asleep anywhere between 2-3am because I fell asleep and I woke up at 3am to check on her (one eye open) and feed my son. So, let me just say I WAS A GROUCH! I could've auditioned for the next grumpier old women! haha. Its been a rough road. And, i'll explain more in my OTHER blog.

But I try! Hey, so the image you see above is of my personal website. I've been meaning to tell you guys about my update! I have a new layout up and I'm not proud of it but it's alright for the time being. Blah. It's just whatever. haha.

Anyways, I wanna make some brownies. Dammit, I don't wanna leave the house right now. Lazy bum!

Boost My Blog Friday!

Hey everyone.

It's that time again. Well, I've been meaning to post this "draft" i had made yesterday but i'm not done with the post! grr. It's all about "new beginnings for the new year" really. I'm such a lazy bum - I'm hyped thru the beginning of the year to 1) get organized 2) start something new (and guesss what? Most likely NEVER finish) and 3) randomly just quick all together. I tell you, I quit making new years resolutions because HELLO? does anyone keep them anymore? Sheesh.

So, needless to say, it's ALOHA friday here in the hawaii state! It's going to be sunshining outside I know it. I just want to get some BBQing done! I need me some steak. Yum! But, we'll see. haha. On another note, I WANT RAIN!!! See, it never snows here in the HI but instead of snow RAIN takes over!

Ohkie dokie. My new layout is up for my Sweet-Essence account. Yesss!! It's very plain and simple only because I had a christmas theme up and it definitely needed to come down. I'd put a Valentines one up too but I'm just not in the mood. I swear, Vday is approaching really quick. I was mad at my husband and daughter a few days last week and guess what they come home with? A sad eyed monkey (i love monkies). haha. SO funny, that was my vday gift. Yey! That's better than nothing right? For the past 6 years I was with my husband never got a vday gift until we made 7 years, and married for almost 6 months! Nice one!

Anyways, blog hoppin I go!!!

Way Satisfying Wed Comment Hop

Hello Everybody,

I'm here. FINALLY! I have internet at my house. Gaw, it was forever. I can live maybe a few months without internet not nearly 5 months without it. Guys, that's almost 1 year! Haha. Yes, time flew by without my noticing. But, it's okay I took us not having internet as a way to sorta just "get my groove" before baby arrived. Spending quality time with my family. Enjoy having just ONE naughty kid before the 2nd arrives. Give my little girl a little more attention before baby arrived. So, all is good.

So, on January 7th, my son was born! I tried to go for the 1st of January - ha, didn't happen! So, I was admitted on January 6th and by 8am the next morning I was ready for this baby! He's such a good baby for the most part. But with his arrival and all - I'm hoping to open up my "mama's world" segment on my website. But, my host is having to switch servers so I don't know what's up! It's all good.

Well, I shall get going lot of peoples blogs to visit. See ya!

Plugging: Sandra the "Absolutely Narcissism" does it again! - She cracks me up!

New Years, New You!!!

Oh my goodness it's already the 4th of January!!! Can you believe it? Gosh I sure can. I'm getting reminded everyday about how fast time is flying!!! So I don't have internet at my house at the moment but I'm hoping it will come back on soon!

So updates:
- my pregnancy is almost over!!!
...I'm giving birth on Friday 01/07/2011.
- my daughter is pretending she's the queen of the house especially with her tantrums.
- if someone asks me one more time if I'm ready for the baby I'm gonna hit you. Question to really ask yourself is "will you ever be ready for a new baby?"
- I've been married for 5 months when my son is born!!

Nothing else really thats just random gibberish. I saw two good movies so far this year "Easy A" and "Step up 3". Great movies!

Anyways I have a whole lot to do still before baby boy is born! Today is tuesday and I get admitted into the hospital on Thursday! Ugh. I haven't washed his laundry, didn't purchase his car seat and stroller, and my penpals are having a cow about late responses!

Anyways until next time!!!