Newface.

Hi everyone. This is the new domain. It's called A Lil Misunderstood. Oh yes, Story of my life. But, that site is really generic right now. I have to add some things to it first. Big plans, big plans! Hopefully. Anyways, It's been too long and I thank you ladies for such warmth with welcomes. I'll always appreciate you for that! (=

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Been too long

Wow. It definitely has been too long and where do I begin? I've been just out of the loop lately with the whole internet (well blogspot.com in general). I was into the hype now I'm slowly dying down. I'm also just relaxing a lot lately. Tonight is ladies night and majority of my girls that's heading out tonight - are mommies! So, we MAMAs NEED A BREAK. Long awaited. For me, it's almost been 8 months. I'm ready for it to come right back with me (=

Umm. Since the tsunami, Hawaii has been in recovery mode and well it didn't hit us dramatically so no damage severely done but lets just say there were damage. It was suppose to hit Kauai first but obviously hmm.. it hit Maui & the Big Island the hardest. But, in honor of Japan the club is wearing red tonight!


Ugh, I'm hungry again. Shrimp Curry was on the menu tonight and now I've got the hungeryyy for some BBQ. Boo. Anyways, I shall get going. Gotta get ready!

Earthquakes and Tsunami warning

Someone on my friends list who also is my excoworker and she had posted a status "is starting to think 2012's not a joke". That kinda irritated me. I don't know why that irritated me. But it was bothersome. Sorry to hear about the people in Japan. It's crazy to what they're going thru. It's kind of nerve wrecking. But anyways.

I'm glued to the TV right now watching our local news. Being that just not too long ago our news station had issued a Tsunami watch for us and they say that at 2:59am and it'll be hitting US first :( Which is KAUAI. Boo.

I pray for Japan, I pray for Hawaii. I hope that everyone is safe. And this is hilarious. So my classmate posted this picture on her facebook and I just HAD to share this with you guys. While everyone is preparing buying water, can goods, etc... customers are buying...

CABBAGE!!

Be safe. Pray for Japan. Pray for Hawaii. Pray for all the people impacted by this earthquake and tsunami warnings or if it actually happens. Until the next update.

Tough Decisions.

Growing up I never had my parents. My mom and dad gave me up for adoption, to my grandparents, when I was about 3 years old. Everything wasn't finalized until I was 8. I remember all I wanted was my parents. You know, their YOURS they gave birth to you, created you and everything. I never had siblings. I knew OF them but never knew who they were and what they were about. Now, what's weighing on my mind is...

About 4 years ago, my husband and I along with our 7 month old daughter (Tatyana was 7mos at the time) moved to Kauai to pretty much "take care of things" here. Jon's grandma was becoming old and she lived alone and didn't want to move with Jon's mom. So, she'd be left alone here yet again, if we left. My auntie and grandma guys came to visit Kauai last week and being home sick PRIOR to their arrival made it worse even when they left. I miss Maui, I miss my Family. Everyone is getting old. My grandparents, my mom them, my little sister, everyone.. My best friend JUST gave birth to my niece today and it makes me miss home even more. I go home 1x or 2x a year and it's ridiculously expensive being that we have to pretty much take a plane ONLY to get to another island. Anyways, I was asked the question today if "moving home sooner or later" is an option. I told Jon that I want to move back within the next couple of years because I want OUR kids to go to MY alma mater. I don't like the schools here on Kauai. But, I don't know we'll see.

Anyways, my daughter is about to attend preschool. And, she'll be able to attend Kindergarten in 2 years. My grandparents are getting old. When my grandma was here she took care of Jaden the entire time. But another thing too is I don't know if Jon is ready to leave here. HIS family is here. MY family is there. Would I have to leave my husband to be with my family if I want our kids to go to school on Maui? My mom is ill and so is my stepdad - My mom needs me she always has and eventually my stepdad will need us all. But I don't know. My stepdads cancer is still in the air. They don't know if what they really see is spreading. I guess. He's still taking MRIs and CAT scans to see what's going on. But my aunties main concern is my grandparents. I don't know why, my uncle and his girlfriend live in that same house. What am I suppose to do?

So, I pretty much told her my entire story. I'm not leaving Jon, period. I'm not letting our kids grow up without their father, I lived that way my entire life and it still depresses me - Do I want to put my kids thru that too? My grandmas house is crammed with my uncle, his girlfriend and my grandma and grandpa - NO ROOM. And, if I end up moving with my mom - DEFINITELY no room. Now, here's the bigger downfall and what's making this decision even harder is.. my grandpa is an alcoholic. He's always been. He recently JUST lost his license because of a DUI. And, I'm afraid for him. Oh wait, I'm afraid OF him. From all the stories I've been hearing is - he's getting abusive. I don't like that. Growing up with his verbal abuse since I was young up until I was 17. The moment I graduated that was it. I moved away didn't look back since. It's been 8 years now. Do I want to go back into that? Raise my children around that? Ugh. But then again, do I wanna raise my children without seeing their grandparents because of my need to keep them away from their drunk greatgrandpa? He's getting old. It's hard. The decisions are even harder. And, supposedly he's not "losing his mind"!

North Shore, Kauai

Hey friends,

Let me tell you how nice it is to be a tourist on an island I live on! We have been the tour guides to my aunty guys who are visiting from Pennsylvania and my grandma whom is visiting from Maui. Today was a gorgeous day for sight seeing. The sun was out and we all had smiles on our faces!

Started off late afternoon. We headed toward Hanalei but ended up at the end in Hā'ena. That's the end of the island. Its so beautiful out there Jon, Taty and I did it every year for the past 3 years. And it never gets old.

Well we went to view beaches, high cliff side look outs, Hanalei pier. We didn't get to go to the Kilāuea light house. Maybe tomorrow on our way out into town.

I'm kind of sad that my family is leaving tomorrow. But it was nice to have stayed with them while they were here! Tonight we celebrated my grandma's Birthday she'll be 70 on Wednesday! Time flies.

Anyways I will be posting pictures...somewhere!! Aloha no from the North Shore of the Garden island (Princeville).

Staycay with the Ohana

Hey everyone,
Going from a day to day posting I stopped just "like that". A lot has been happening around here. I've been curled up in the front of my book lately. I haven't read a book since my pregnancy was over and well with all the chaos going on - I didnt have time. But this time I actually FOUND the time and quite frankly it feels good to read again. It's like my quick getaway. But I'm currently into Jude Deveraux - "The Summerhouse". It's a cute read. On another note, I did mention that my bestie is having a baby...a baby girl - in March (9th) and I have promised myself that I will make her something "homemade" = "lots of love". Well im working on finishing a quilt for her. It's super cute. Challenging but isn't hard. I've got lots of flaws. I wanted it to be done by the weekend, but with my major procrastination, Psh riiight!! Which brings me to my next topic.. I wanted the quilt to be completed by the weekend because I would save a postage cost "( because my family is in town and I could've made them bring it home! But Uhh. It's not completed.

Well my family from Maui and Pennsylvania is in town having some r&r and boy it feels good to be with family. I have Jon's family here, and I try to build a foundation of acceptance, but they just drop me on my behind. So when my family comes in town I have every intention of making it worth a million! So far we haven't done any sight seeing and they do leave tomorrow (Monday). But their r&r stay wasn't to be soaked in with a huge agenda that takes up your entire vacation in one gulp - so my aunty and uncle did their own thing of working out meanwhile me, my husband, our kids, my cousin and my grandma have been chilin. Our townhouse that we have been staying at is frickin exquisite! I will post pix in my next post. And this side of the island, Princeville, is gorgeous and frickin expensive hands down! Me and my backbone, my grandma, have been catching up being that its almost been a month since I've made it back home, to Maui. I've missed her. I'm hoping to go home soon. Mommy needs some r&r too. Oh and with Jaden we notice that his vision might be a little more clearer, at 1mos and a half, he is more fixated on actual things and faces. He coos a lot. The first person he had a cooing conversation with was my grandma, his great grandma/3rd generation! And my cousin accidentally hit my son on his head with a tic tac box because he was fckn grouchy that his dad told him he had to give it back to my grandma and he was throwing his childish temper tantrums. Gosh he's 12 with just no sense of...*sigh. Double sigh. triple sigh! Middle finger up. Lol Jk.

Well, I guess that's it. It's 315am, just got thru a feeding. It's time for me to go back to bed, yo! Gnight Gmorning!

Man, it's monday?

Did I tell you how much I hate the fact that the week is so damn long but the weekend flies by as if it's nobody's business. And because we had plans it definitely went by even faster. So, I don't know if I ever told you about my old friends that I disconnected with because of some super melodrama thing we went thru after I got married in August? Well, i reunited with those two girls that almost ruined me. But it's okay. It was a good night overall. Our kids had the time of their lives. My son was a major chick magnet. And then, my daughter, that's her godparents house and her fav cousins are there, so she was having a ball especially with other kids there - it was a loud house! And, the mommies got to catch up on old times (= It was pretty nice.

But anyways, guess what.. so my family is sick. Well, me, my daughter, and my son! This is my sons FIRST real sickness since he's been here and gosh I hate it. He's got a stuffy nose and sneezing. But his sneezing could've been from when he was born as well. He's had this weird sneeze since day 1 but I don't know what to do. The doctor says it's okay. Stupid me, I wasn't feeling well and I guess there is a difference from when you're pregnant and from when you're breastfeeding. LOL. When I was pregnant I was a mess. I would get sick every time the seasons change. No joke It's true! So, my doctor had prescribed Cheratussin AC it's codeine with Robitussin. And, well when I googled the information AFTER I already took it - it says as your childs pediatrician if it's okay to take this medication. Comes to find out, I'm  not suppose to. So, I couldn't feed him breastmilk for half the day. But I did end up feeding him maybe like 9 hours later. And now I have a major headache or call if a migraine. I'm very sensitive to noise right now but I have no choice than to suck it up. Husband believes it's just "tension headache". So, I took Ibuprofen that I got when my son was born and I had my Csection. Ugh this icky feeling sucks! I hate being sick. But, there isn't anything I could do. Fight immune system FIGHT.

Husband made dinner tonight. Thanks boo. He made us Shoyu Chicken (= Delicioso. My husband loves making that for us because I love chicken, and I love his SHOYU chicken. By the way, SHOYU, in hawaii, means Soy Sauce (= haha. It's a lot of soy sauce actually. And sugar, and ginger, and lots of love. It was good. But, I still had to give my daughter and I - orange juice and chicken noodle soup. Ugh, OJ isn't good for my diabetes but boy I need that vitamin C (=

Ok. I'm gonna go. My son is cooing next to me and I'm loving to hear his voice. So, I'm gonna go hold him while he talks stories with me. Toodles. Good night. Have a wonderful week folks.