Thursday, March 31, 2011


Hi everyone. This is the new domain. It's called A Lil Misunderstood. Oh yes, Story of my life. But, that site is really generic right now. I have to add some things to it first. Big plans, big plans! Hopefully. Anyways, It's been too long and I thank you ladies for such warmth with welcomes. I'll always appreciate you for that! (=

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Saturday, March 26, 2011

Been too long

Wow. It definitely has been too long and where do I begin? I've been just out of the loop lately with the whole internet (well in general). I was into the hype now I'm slowly dying down. I'm also just relaxing a lot lately. Tonight is ladies night and majority of my girls that's heading out tonight - are mommies! So, we MAMAs NEED A BREAK. Long awaited. For me, it's almost been 8 months. I'm ready for it to come right back with me (=

Umm. Since the tsunami, Hawaii has been in recovery mode and well it didn't hit us dramatically so no damage severely done but lets just say there were damage. It was suppose to hit Kauai first but obviously hmm.. it hit Maui & the Big Island the hardest. But, in honor of Japan the club is wearing red tonight!

Ugh, I'm hungry again. Shrimp Curry was on the menu tonight and now I've got the hungeryyy for some BBQ. Boo. Anyways, I shall get going. Gotta get ready!

Friday, March 11, 2011

Earthquakes and Tsunami warning

Someone on my friends list who also is my excoworker and she had posted a status "is starting to think 2012's not a joke". That kinda irritated me. I don't know why that irritated me. But it was bothersome. Sorry to hear about the people in Japan. It's crazy to what they're going thru. It's kind of nerve wrecking. But anyways.

I'm glued to the TV right now watching our local news. Being that just not too long ago our news station had issued a Tsunami watch for us and they say that at 2:59am and it'll be hitting US first :( Which is KAUAI. Boo.

I pray for Japan, I pray for Hawaii. I hope that everyone is safe. And this is hilarious. So my classmate posted this picture on her facebook and I just HAD to share this with you guys. While everyone is preparing buying water, can goods, etc... customers are buying...


Be safe. Pray for Japan. Pray for Hawaii. Pray for all the people impacted by this earthquake and tsunami warnings or if it actually happens. Until the next update.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Tough Decisions.

Growing up I never had my parents. My mom and dad gave me up for adoption, to my grandparents, when I was about 3 years old. Everything wasn't finalized until I was 8. I remember all I wanted was my parents. You know, their YOURS they gave birth to you, created you and everything. I never had siblings. I knew OF them but never knew who they were and what they were about. Now, what's weighing on my mind is...

About 4 years ago, my husband and I along with our 7 month old daughter (Tatyana was 7mos at the time) moved to Kauai to pretty much "take care of things" here. Jon's grandma was becoming old and she lived alone and didn't want to move with Jon's mom. So, she'd be left alone here yet again, if we left. My auntie and grandma guys came to visit Kauai last week and being home sick PRIOR to their arrival made it worse even when they left. I miss Maui, I miss my Family. Everyone is getting old. My grandparents, my mom them, my little sister, everyone.. My best friend JUST gave birth to my niece today and it makes me miss home even more. I go home 1x or 2x a year and it's ridiculously expensive being that we have to pretty much take a plane ONLY to get to another island. Anyways, I was asked the question today if "moving home sooner or later" is an option. I told Jon that I want to move back within the next couple of years because I want OUR kids to go to MY alma mater. I don't like the schools here on Kauai. But, I don't know we'll see.

Anyways, my daughter is about to attend preschool. And, she'll be able to attend Kindergarten in 2 years. My grandparents are getting old. When my grandma was here she took care of Jaden the entire time. But another thing too is I don't know if Jon is ready to leave here. HIS family is here. MY family is there. Would I have to leave my husband to be with my family if I want our kids to go to school on Maui? My mom is ill and so is my stepdad - My mom needs me she always has and eventually my stepdad will need us all. But I don't know. My stepdads cancer is still in the air. They don't know if what they really see is spreading. I guess. He's still taking MRIs and CAT scans to see what's going on. But my aunties main concern is my grandparents. I don't know why, my uncle and his girlfriend live in that same house. What am I suppose to do?

So, I pretty much told her my entire story. I'm not leaving Jon, period. I'm not letting our kids grow up without their father, I lived that way my entire life and it still depresses me - Do I want to put my kids thru that too? My grandmas house is crammed with my uncle, his girlfriend and my grandma and grandpa - NO ROOM. And, if I end up moving with my mom - DEFINITELY no room. Now, here's the bigger downfall and what's making this decision even harder is.. my grandpa is an alcoholic. He's always been. He recently JUST lost his license because of a DUI. And, I'm afraid for him. Oh wait, I'm afraid OF him. From all the stories I've been hearing is - he's getting abusive. I don't like that. Growing up with his verbal abuse since I was young up until I was 17. The moment I graduated that was it. I moved away didn't look back since. It's been 8 years now. Do I want to go back into that? Raise my children around that? Ugh. But then again, do I wanna raise my children without seeing their grandparents because of my need to keep them away from their drunk greatgrandpa? He's getting old. It's hard. The decisions are even harder. And, supposedly he's not "losing his mind"!